Currently Listening Saturate By Jeff Deyo the song "you are good" see related

so im tryin this xanga thing agian. its not my fav, but i just need to talk. what has the world come to? people are pretty much selfish, me included. but its literally so hard to love others when ur not loved in return. i guess thats what real love is. sumtimes i think to myself that i wanna be a pastor of a church one day. but then i think to myself, if i cant even handle people in my own life having beef with me, or people having a problem with my beliefs. i just feel like so many people are all about "me". its like...open ur eyes! when u make ur world about u its gonna suck! if u make ur world about other people, its gonna be something worth while. i dunno, i feel like when i was younger, no one really had problems, or at least with me. but now people are having problems left and right. its like im a walking problem. i dunno, im just typing here. i think a lot of this has to do with pressure from people. pressure from my mom, friends, and such. pressure is all around me. i always tell people. its not what happens in ur life. its how u react to it. i believe that. i guess i just  need to live it.  i need to live more for god. and i need to stop thinking people wont hurt me. cuz it happens. i need to react to it better tho. insted of having a pitty party.

something that i kinda have been wanting to do on xanga, myspace, and facebook. is start a lil church thing up. i know there are a lot of students or kids who dont go to church at college, or whatever. and i wanna try to mayb type out a message each week. i wonder if anyone would read it? would u? would it be beneficial? does anyone besides bender even go on xanga anymore?

i need to remember god is good, and his love endoures for ever...

Currently Watching Mean Girls (Full Screen Edition) see related

in my days of living on my own, i have realized that there is so much money involved in living by urself.  so i have come up with some cleaver ways to save money. and here are 7 of them...

1. to save money on ketchup by going to mcdonalds and getting those little ketch up packets and throwing them in my frig

2. to save money on food on saturdays by going to costco and getting all the free samples they serve during the day time on saturday

3. to save money at FRIDAYS, go there with a rich friend and pretend you forgot your wallet

4. to save money on envelopes, go to Alpine automotive and go to their "drop off" box, where u drop off your keys to give them your car for the night, there you will find some envelopes to put your key in, insted use them for your personal use, and send a romantic letter to a loved one

5. to save money on teddy grams, have your 3 year old baby brother, steal the box from preschool and give it to you when u come to pick him up at the end of the day

6. to save money on condoms, just get them from the harper health office, or go to the Avante building at Haper the week before Spring Break, in that building you will go to the booth with the woman yelling "its ok to have a little fun on Spring Break, take a rubber and free a frisbee", these are 2 ways of saving money on condoms, now go play a joke on a friend, put one in her purse, and have someone she is mentoring find it when the kid askes for a piece of gum.

7. to save money on toilet paper, candles, and your water bill, go number 2 at restraunts, school, or at a friends house.  this way you can reduce the money you spend on toilet paper, and keep your bathroom from smelling like a skunk that ran into a dead baby.